I'm thankful for your comment and the original's author article, it helped me realize I'm not (utterly) mad.
Even though I haven't been completely deaf in a fairly long time (some form of congenital defect, sorta fixed, on and off, will get worse again), I still have a very hard time judging loudness. The way I do most things - even mindlessly simple like walking, grabbing a pen on a table or eating - I minimize sound as much as possible, like not/barely touching the floor with my heels.
I know it's kind of ridiculous to most people, but I'm also not sure the same people quite realize how continuously stressful it is to have little to no feedback from a sense you should normally be able to rely on.
These behaviors have become second nature for the most part, but I still feel like I'm letting down everybody when I do make noise, on the few occasions where I'm not mindful of my actions.
As a bit of an aside, I find it interesting that the loss of a sense generally seems to bring about a completely different level of introspection and self-awareness, not better or worse, just profoundly different (or I'm completely biased).
Even though I haven't been completely deaf in a fairly long time (some form of congenital defect, sorta fixed, on and off, will get worse again), I still have a very hard time judging loudness. The way I do most things - even mindlessly simple like walking, grabbing a pen on a table or eating - I minimize sound as much as possible, like not/barely touching the floor with my heels.
I know it's kind of ridiculous to most people, but I'm also not sure the same people quite realize how continuously stressful it is to have little to no feedback from a sense you should normally be able to rely on.
These behaviors have become second nature for the most part, but I still feel like I'm letting down everybody when I do make noise, on the few occasions where I'm not mindful of my actions.
As a bit of an aside, I find it interesting that the loss of a sense generally seems to bring about a completely different level of introspection and self-awareness, not better or worse, just profoundly different (or I'm completely biased).