You have great self awareness and identified what you can do to improve (raise things sooner if stuck, ask more questions). But it sounds you are just not in a team that will set you up for success even if you do it. They seem to assign tasks well beyond your comfort zone, they don’t mentor you, they don’t have guard rails, I am guessing they don’t have infrastructure as code / mature ci/cd or branch protection policies if a junior dev can break production. As others said, if you can find another team, I would do it.