I find myself struggling with somewhat related situation, everything in my life is going good, happily married and a great job that I love however I find myself wanting to watch the world burn, I get excited about the prospect of war and the collapse of society. I keep it under wraps and don't mention it to anyone but I'm really not sure what's wrong with me.
A friend of mine shared similar story with me. He sold his company, has enough money, travels a lot, married etc
but he secretly hopes for the war, chaos .
I felt that he just wants a reset in life which he can't do himself due to society, family pressure and hopes some external event will do it for him.
